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When I was younger, I did a snow/ice sculpture of a dog. It was really good. I think my skills died with my childhood. LOL
Yeah, when we lose our imagination and childhood naiveté a lot of the creativity goes with it. I used to be able to write stories like it was nothing, but these days...nothing.
That is what happened with my writing and drawing. I mean I can't write poetry at all anymore and I really have to be in the mood to draw. I will start and quit 10 minutes later.
Yep, same here, and it's annoying because I could write fairly decent stories when I was younger. One of my teachers encouraged me to get published, but I was too self-critical and didn't ever think I was that good, so stuck to programming. Every time I try and sit down to write now it just comes out like garbage. I keep trying to write my mother's story so that when she's gone I'll have that to remember her by, and pass along to other family members, but...it just comes out as rambly nonsense. Frustrating!
Even if it is just ramblings, I think documenting everything is still worth it!
I wrote a book back in 2014. One of those saucy "adult novels" (aka middle-aged woman porn LOL). I think it ended up being like 48k words. I was inspired but the whole young love thing. Just had started dating Jay so it helped. I don't know if I even still have the file for it. I did have it on Amazon for a while as an e-book but ended up taking it down.
I feel like as adults, we need to feel inspired by something emotional to write. I am sure you will find your inspiration for your story and you will know when you do because it will just flow out of you.
I agree it's worth it, and I'll probably sit down again and try to put my thoughts together, because it's one of those things that to me feels like something I have to do and have to document. Not for me, necessarily, but for my family and maybe even as a "look inside" the life beyond dementia for others, because anyone that meets her now would never know who she really was, and that eats me up at times. She was such an amazing person when she was her, I'd like for that to be remembered, and that's what makes me want to pursue it.
Beerus writing naughty novels? That I'd love to read!
. Female-oriented adult content is usually a bit more on the wordy and descriptive side, which is a great change from the usual male-oriented "here's 2 seconds of build up and then straight to sex." No nuance, no mystery, just "here's a story about, oh who cares about that, nudity time!" Err...anyway, not to take this discussion down that road...Yep, you're right, we do need inspiration and stimulation to sit down and write these days or it just doesn't work. If we could only unlock that imagination from youth, things might flow a bit easier, but no...gotta' wait for those moments of clarity to hit and hope it lasts long enough to write something decent. In my case...no...but who knows, maybe one day?
I hope you do it, not just for yourself but for other people in your life. You might even help others if you get it published. Helping out strangers. I can imagine though Dementia is on the rise, sons and daughters helping their parents through it have to feel alone.
I can't remember the entire story but it dealt with some kind of werewolf twist. Like the story was about a woman who remembers a wolf from her childhood, turns out to be the man she fell in love with, turns out to be her husband she had completely forgotten she married... It was a lot. LOL It dealt with a lot of daydreaming and visions. Named it Reverie. So while it was all "hot and bothered" at times, it turns out the woman was making passionate love to her husband the entire time... who happened to be a werewolf man. The real shocker here is that I didn't make him a cat man.Beerus writing naughty novels? That I'd love to read!
Just get yourself a journal and start writing things down every day. Just little notes. Things that happened. Use it as a diary of sorts.
Yeah, I do want to get it done, and hopefully I will, because you're absolutely right, it can feel at times like you're pretty alone in dealing with it. Just knowing there are lots of other people actually dealing with it and that everyone struggles because it is a difficult thing to deal with. It feels like you're dealing with this monstrous person at times, and it's easy to forget who they were while they're rampaging, and yet you sit and think back and you remember...this is an amazing person, someone you care deeply for and who has lived quite an incredible life. Document that, contrast it to this and maybe it will be a fitting tribute.
That is a shocker! Then again, people do write a lot of stories based around wolves and werewolves, so it absolutely makes sense. Sounds like a decent read, actually.
Yeah, that's something I used to do a lot, I definitely should get back to that, help me remember things and hopefully turn that into something.
My nana didn't get so bad. She had worse short-term memory but she still remembered everyone. Just had some weird thoughts. She thought she was pregnant once and called my mom crying. It was weird. My grandpa though, he could hardly remember any of us. He started blaming people in the family of stealing from him. It got bad at times. I wasn't even around for a lot of this but the bit that I witnessed, I can't imagine going through it the way you do. I know I said it before but your mom is lucky to have you.
...I was actually going to start this with "well that's good" with regards to your nana, but I think I mean more that's fortunate that she didn't get too far down the spiral. I'm sure it still terrified her, what she did deal with, but to still have her memory more or less in tact is a blessing. My mother is very much in line with your grandfather, she accuses me of stealing from her, makes up these fantastical things about people she's never met as if she's known them her whole life, says everyone is being mean to her all the time, and cries over nothing a lot...it's just such a shift from who she is that it can be jarring even after all this time. Not fun, but it's my mother, she deserves to be looked after.
Yeah, it was fortunate. Both have passed away and aren't suffering anymore.
I knew of someone else who was this way but still very mobile. My grandpa has issues getting around. My aunt's mother (my grandpa's bother's wife's mother) was VERY out there. The last time I saw her, she was trying to get me to give her a cigarette and called me a slut. She confused me for someone she knew when she was younger. She also flirted with guys all the time. Like my cousin would bring a friend around that was a guy and she would try to sleep with them. I couldn't even grasp what was going on. I believe she passed away back in 2017. She was very up there in age so I am surprised she lived as long as she did. I think she was 95.
That's the part that....I don't know how to phrase this without seeming callous, so I don't mean "looking forward" to, but...the phrasing is not coming to me, so...I guess that's what I'm [better phrasing here] to about my mother. Not her passing away, I dread that day, but her not being frightened, confused, upset and disoriented all the time. I hate seeing her struggle after being so sure of herself her whole life.
Ugh, the flirting...I hate the flirting part. My mother does that to ME all the time when I take her for a drive. She thinks I'm one of her old boyfriends, and while normally I'd give anything to have a woman that interested in being with me, absolutely and unequivocally not my 74 year old mother...it's disturbing on so many levels and makes me super uncomfortable, but it's also not her fault. She can't do anything about it and that's what you have to remember.
I understand what you mean. You are not looking forward to seeing her go but rather her suffering to end.
I have seen it in action and I am sorry you have to go through it with your own mother. I wish there was something more we could do for people going through stuff like this. You can't get mad because they don't know any better but you can't let it press on because it causes stress for the person caring for them.
Exactly, yeah. I don't like seeing her go through this, but the thought of her passing is awful, as well...I know we all do, and I'm prepared for that day, but she's still my mother, you know? I want her to be safe, happy and content.
It's not great when it happens, but you're spot on, you can't get mad about it because she doesn't know any better, but when I stop her she gets dejected and angry...it's a lose-lose for me, but it's something that absolutely cannot keep going. I'd give anything for someone to legitimately feel that way about me, but not my own mother...that's...no. I'm glad it's not a caregiver taking care of her, because how do I know they wouldn't take advantage of her disorientation? I suppose I could insist on a female caregiver if it ever came to that, but even women can do evil things.
Is there any program in your state that will help with assistance for you? Like within your home. Someone that comes by once a day or a few times a week. Maybe if she had interactions with other people on a weekly basis, her focus on you as a companion would shift of bit. I don't know if this would have to be paid out of pocket though. Before my grandparents were put in a home, they has a nurse come by to help out. She was a very nice woman and very honest.
There is respite care of up to 8 hours per week, but I've never even considered it because I don't know how she'll act around someone she doesn't know. She has moments where she's super nice to people she meets, and times where she is just the meanest thing on earth, and I would hate to subject someone to that for an hour or so a day just because I wanted some time away.
It is worth trying. Like I said, she might replace them with good memories and think of them as someone she liked from the past. These kinds of nurses are trained to handle these situations. The one that worked with my nana (she actually was at mine and Jay's wedding) was a very loving and understanding woman. She knew what could happen and never held things like that against the folks she worked with. Like she didn't take it personally.
That's what I would hope for, so yeah I probably will give it a try at some point. She needs the extra contact, I need the break, and it could be a really good thing.