My Brother Died
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We were all devastated the week it happened but we have had plenty of prayers and support since then and we feel a lot better now. I’m sure my parents and I will tear up again at the funeral however.
I am sorry. It is good but still bad. Knowing he wasn't troubled is good, but he still lost his life because of an addiction I am presuming.
Accidents can happen with drug overdose, but sometimes there's foul play. Make sure they investigate this thoroughly.
A friend of my brother's died almost the same way. He was a drug dealer when he died. He had the drugs on him, with intent to sell or distribute. He is not the type to snort the drug.
So, by second hand, he smelled drug or something. I forgot how it actually happened but it was a mix between two drugs in basic layman terms. Fentenyal is more potent than any drug on the market today. But if you mix two, you can actually achieve the same result.
I am sorry for your loss. Tell family to stay away from drugs at any scale. Even a pint of a drug can kill you. There's a reason why TSA agents use gloves for drug search.
A friend of my brother's died almost the same way. He was a drug dealer when he died. He had the drugs on him, with intent to sell or distribute. He is not the type to snort the drug.
So, by second hand, he smelled drug or something. I forgot how it actually happened but it was a mix between two drugs in basic layman terms. Fentenyal is more potent than any drug on the market today. But if you mix two, you can actually achieve the same result.
I am sorry for your loss. Tell family to stay away from drugs at any scale. Even a pint of a drug can kill you. There's a reason why TSA agents use gloves for drug search.
The police said the drugs my brother took were laced with fentanyl, actually.
That is what I was thinking but didn't want to say. It has been happening so much. I think everyone knows someone that fentanyl killed at this point. They are finding it in literally everything right now. Street drugs are the most unsafe they have ever been.
If you need anyone to talk to, hmu. I lost my cousin back in May the exact same way, and we were close enough that you'd think we was brothers. Stay strong man, and sorry for you lost man, shit def isn't easy to deal with.
I need help.
I normally react to negative situations that come up in my life with wrath and anger, but with my brother dead, the shock I once had over his passing is now replaced with sadness and depression, and in some ways that's worse, and I'm not used to dealing with such emotions. It's important to note that I do have clinical depression that I take medication for, but it's not nearly as severe as my bipolar disorder or mood disorder which is related to my temper, which I also take medication for.
I don't have any other siblings, I barely have any extended family, and I'm not really close to any distant family. My brother was really my main source of familial bonds, at least around my age. I remember my Mom's boss said to my Mom that he's praying for everyone in my immediate family but especially me. I didn't actually get where he was coming from until now.
I tried going to Church, but I had to do it on my own because my Dad is too picky and my Mom said she would get too emotional when music starts playing. In the end, I realized I don't have enough willpower to go on my own, especially since I can't drive and I live with my parents. Church is supposed to be traditional and all immediate family members are supposed to go.
The only things I have to look forward to is I'm now taking Mounjaro to lose weight and I plan to go to the YMCA to get healthier. I also want to go to counselling and seek advice over life directions and dealing with grief.
I normally react to negative situations that come up in my life with wrath and anger, but with my brother dead, the shock I once had over his passing is now replaced with sadness and depression, and in some ways that's worse, and I'm not used to dealing with such emotions. It's important to note that I do have clinical depression that I take medication for, but it's not nearly as severe as my bipolar disorder or mood disorder which is related to my temper, which I also take medication for.
I don't have any other siblings, I barely have any extended family, and I'm not really close to any distant family. My brother was really my main source of familial bonds, at least around my age. I remember my Mom's boss said to my Mom that he's praying for everyone in my immediate family but especially me. I didn't actually get where he was coming from until now.
I tried going to Church, but I had to do it on my own because my Dad is too picky and my Mom said she would get too emotional when music starts playing. In the end, I realized I don't have enough willpower to go on my own, especially since I can't drive and I live with my parents. Church is supposed to be traditional and all immediate family members are supposed to go.
The only things I have to look forward to is I'm now taking Mounjaro to lose weight and I plan to go to the YMCA to get healthier. I also want to go to counselling and seek advice over life directions and dealing with grief.
I am sorry for your challenges.
My best advice, and its from my limited experience... but you need to do "SOMETHING" else, I don't know what, or which... you'd have to figure this out yourself. The trick is, you need to move your heart somewhere else, and when I say this - I don't mean physical removal of your heart. I mean, your energy. Every person has a soul, every person has a temple. That heart is your temple.
I discussed this before, and I'm gonna do this now. I am in a long-term separation with someone I've known in 2003. I get heavy heart palations. It comes and go, like depression. But depression is a different energy. And you need to rattle it, move it around.
Anyway, in the last 20 years, I been struggling with thinking of someone that I liked, and loved. It was tugging at my heart for years, while trying to do everything to ignore it, and do something else. It worked for a while, but in 2018, I got round 2 after my grandmother passed. I had it a little easier than my mom, because I'm not - close. Like, I love her, and try to take care of her in the years before, but the attachment is like... I'm over here, you're over there. What's worse is I'm an Aquarius so, the aloof attitude style is bad. People think I don't have feelings, but I DO. This to me, is my way of absorbing the pain and put it in a vessel somewhere. Burying the pain.
But once you feel something and it needs an outlet, your soul needs to feed it somewhere.
When I think of my 2003 woman, I have to masturbate somewhere private, and let it go. Because that kind of love is like "I want to be with you, and mate with you" kind of love. But when it a SIBLING, you can't do that. You need to walk off the energy or distract yourself with something else. Find something to love. And replace that love with something else. I don't know what it is for you, and I can't tell you what to do but kinda guide you.
My best advice, and its from my limited experience... but you need to do "SOMETHING" else, I don't know what, or which... you'd have to figure this out yourself. The trick is, you need to move your heart somewhere else, and when I say this - I don't mean physical removal of your heart. I mean, your energy. Every person has a soul, every person has a temple. That heart is your temple.
I discussed this before, and I'm gonna do this now. I am in a long-term separation with someone I've known in 2003. I get heavy heart palations. It comes and go, like depression. But depression is a different energy. And you need to rattle it, move it around.
Anyway, in the last 20 years, I been struggling with thinking of someone that I liked, and loved. It was tugging at my heart for years, while trying to do everything to ignore it, and do something else. It worked for a while, but in 2018, I got round 2 after my grandmother passed. I had it a little easier than my mom, because I'm not - close. Like, I love her, and try to take care of her in the years before, but the attachment is like... I'm over here, you're over there. What's worse is I'm an Aquarius so, the aloof attitude style is bad. People think I don't have feelings, but I DO. This to me, is my way of absorbing the pain and put it in a vessel somewhere. Burying the pain.
But once you feel something and it needs an outlet, your soul needs to feed it somewhere.
When I think of my 2003 woman, I have to masturbate somewhere private, and let it go. Because that kind of love is like "I want to be with you, and mate with you" kind of love. But when it a SIBLING, you can't do that. You need to walk off the energy or distract yourself with something else. Find something to love. And replace that love with something else. I don't know what it is for you, and I can't tell you what to do but kinda guide you.
I can relate though. I want to find love, and I have had two specific love interests that never worked out for different reasons. I also want to have a family one day, mainly due to my lack of familial bonds. But because I have asperger's syndrome or high functioning autism, I have been told before on numerous occasions that these goals would be difficult for me to accomplish. It's so frustrating for me.
Have you told your story to anyone around the church? Do they hold any small groups nearby? It can be a great way to build one-on-one and get some support. It's tough, I get it. But you don't want to isolate yourself further while you're going through the rough crap.
Do this ASAP.
It's way difficult, for sure, but not impossible. If it's any inspiration, there's a documentary series on Netflix called Love on the Spectrum where it follows autistic people putting themselves out there. Some of them even got married.
I have told people around my Church. Perhaps I should keep going but try to ask around for prayer and support.
It's definitely going to be a help. And yeah, look into small groups there. Ask if they do anything like it. It's a great way to build relationships with people there.